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"I know, Kevin. I know I can't do anything for Keith here. But.... I don't know if Keith told you about this, but they went to an alternate reality." 'They,' because it was while Shiro was still missing. "A place where history went differently. So it's possible we're not actually all from the same reality. We don't remember anything when we go back, so there's no way of knowing for sure. And it'd explain things like how Pidge keeps coming here from different points in time but she never remembers being here before, if it's a slightly different Pidge every time."

There's something undeniably desperate in Shiro's eyes by now.

"If that's the case, if it's really true that my future doesn't have to be his past, then it isn't really changing the timeline, right?"

"I've thought the same about Pidge."

It is absolutely a legitimate theory. There have been identical people from slightly different worlds in Empatheias before, the Millas being the example Kevin knows best. He's wondered it about his own world, the Abyss being what it is. It'd explain the wonky timelines they're confronted by sometimes, too -- Vincent showing up as an adult at first, only to be brought in as a child all that time later. Why? It haunts him, somewhat.

"But Shiro, if he is 'your' Keith, you will be changing the timeline. And if he isn't 'your' Keith -- who's to say things will even go the same way in your own world as it is? If you really are from alternate realities, for all you know, you already will figure out how to keep him from such a fate. You aren't going to know until somebody goes home and comes back with a story that's truly different, and to hold on to that sort of hope to get through is..."

Well, down that way lies madness, really. More importantly, though --

"...anyway...Shiro, you're so important to him. To talk in such a way, it almost makes it sound like -- you're saying you don't want him to be 'your' Keith, and for him to realize such a thing, he'd..."

Edited 2018-02-11 02:22 (UTC)

"It's not that I don't want him to be 'my' Keith. He's done so well for himself, even with the way things ended up. I'm proud of him, I really am. But, I... I don't want to be 'his' Shiro. I don't want to be the kind of person who takes the Black Lion away from him. I don't want to get taken by the Galra again, either. I don't want to just disappear on them. It feels like every time I hear something new about what's going on back home, everything's just getting worse, and I don't want to just let it all happen."

That old dark cloud of Shiro's is starting to gather overhead again, and the gravity's getting worse.

"I hate feeling like this. There has to be something I can do."

"Shiro, that boy is -- hnnnnnnnn."

There is a lot going on in this ramble and Kevin's not sure he's equipped to deal with it. But the bit about not wanting to be the sort of person who "takes the Black Lion away from him" jumps out. Given what he knows about Keith there's just...there's something really, really wrong with that part.

"...when you first brought him to me, he was a good swordsman, but it was painfully obvious to anyone who's grown up with a blade that he was untrained, Shiro. I understand he spent a great deal of time whacking away at some sort of robot dummy, but that's no substitute for a real teacher. When he went home I wondered if his time away from me would cause his skills to atrophy. Instead, after spending a year with the Blade of Marmora, when we trained again -- for the very first time he knocked me down. He hasn't kept me down but it's a matter of time. I suspect we'll be even by the middle of this upcoming year, and it's because he finally had formal training."

He pauses to take a deep breath. It's difficult to get enough air, with Shiro increasing the pressure this way.

"This business with 'leading Voltron'...he absolutely possesses those skills. I see them in him all the time, especially now. But they've been just as instinctive and unpolished as his swordsmanship was, and to be thrown into such a position so harshly, it was really no different than having him whack a dummy until he sorts himself out, you know? I can't...tell you that it's going to be okay. I don't exist in your world, that we know of; I can't see everything. But I can tell you that you didn't take the Black Lion away from him, Shiro. To hear it from him, he gave it back to you, and thus put himself in a position where he was better able to learn. I think that's exactly what he ought to have done. So if you're going to blame yourself for things you haven't even lived through yet, please at least don't blame yourself for that, alright...?"

Edited (oops this was December) 2018-02-16 06:05 (UTC)

"It's not just Keith, Kevin. The Black Lion isn't just a weapon. It's alive. It's intelligent. And it chose Keith over me. I should've respected that. Keith should have, too."

Ultimately, who pilots the Black Lion or not isn't actually their decision to make. The Black Lion's opinion is the one that matters, and as far as Shiro can tell, it made its opinion pretty clear.

"If Keith was just in the Black Lion where he belongs, then he wouldn't have...."

"Do you really think Keith of all people will accept others telling him just where he ought to be? God Himself could tell that boy he 'belongs' in the Black Lion and he'd argue, if it suited him."

Which is...eh. It makes Kevin happier than it doesn't, most of the time. Privately, he thinks that's a part of what will make him a good leader in the end, but what does Kevin know? He's a follower.

"Anyway, in the end, it allows you both to pilot the thing. Both of you think the other one 'belongs' with it. From what I hear, that Zarkon fellow thinks he belongs with it, and for a while it wasn't inclined to argue. If you ask me that lion sounds up to something."

"Don't talk about it like that. You don't understand." That's the firmest Shiro's sounded in a while. Enough so that he almost sounds like himself again.

"The Black Lion wants a strong leader for a pilot. Someone who--who doesn't do this."

He gestures to himself, moping around in bed all day at a time when arguably his team needs him the most.

"Have emotions?"

Yeah, no, Kevin just isn't all that impressed by this lion and he's going to be sarcastic. Sorry, bro.

"Look, war doesn't give you the luxury of having a proper sulk, I understand that. Even so, didn't somebody tell me that whoever's in Red is supposed to be your 'right-hand man'? If that's how things are supposed to be, Black isn't going to mind if Keith or Lance or whoever is obliged to kick you about the bum to get you back into shape from time to time. Since that's the case...maybe you ought to open that door and let the kids snuggle up on you a bit, hmm?"

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